Vanilla Sugar

4/29/13

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:51:01 -0400

I’m getting a cat when I get a place

Hey you

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:49:42 -0400

I fucking hate you. No one will ever understand or even try to understand the bullshit you have put me through you piece of shit scum bag mother fucker. I deserve so much more. I know there are decent, caring men out there that will truly love me and not hurt me, physically, mentally, every thing….

I miss my friends. I want to curl up in a ball and cry my little heart out </3

I think Levy tries a little too hard to be cute. Haha

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:25:14 -0400

I think Levy tries a little too hard to be cute. Haha

silvarbelle: the-original-morticiamunroe: jhutchandme: jillyd4...

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:19:48 -0400

silvarbelle:

the-original-morticiamunroe:

jhutchandme:

jillyd4:

This is dangerous. It almost makes me want another baby.

This makes me want to have a baby in general omg

that baby is like ‘dad, wtf are you doing”

so cute.

LOVE the look in that kid’s eyes. =D

And the teeny smile going on of “Oh, for… Da-aaaa-aaad! *grin*”

4/25/13

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 16:29:28 -0400

I’m depressed today. I hate my ex. He makes me feel like shit. He’s annoying and he’s mean. I can’t wait to get out of here. I fucking hate him.

The problem with sex is self-respect, calibration The orgasm...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 10:00:00 -0400

The problem with sex is self-respect, calibration

The orgasm services validation

And the problem with love, is that it lives in a book now

The problem with drugs is that their too fucking good now

The problem with logic is there’s too many loopholes

And the problem with truth is that its usually brutal

The problem is I can’t trust most of what I see

So fuck it all the problems of life must be me

4/16/13

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 23:15:00 -0400

Got my car registered, got few things for my car that’s needed. Made copies of keys that I needed… tomorrow going to the gym in the longest time!!! I finally have money <3

I’m really excited to go to the gym!! All I’m going to do is cardio haha, from now on until I see some results. Cardio and core. Agh this summer I WILL BE SEXY!!!!!!!! Get it right ahhhh so excited. I have to pee.

Video

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 15:03:51 -0400

I may be sensitive at times but FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST FUCKING MANIPULATE AND TAKE...

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:23:59 -0400

I may be sensitive at times but FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST FUCKING MANIPULATE AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME. Fucking men, most are pieces of shit. I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

4/15/13

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:18:24 -0400

In reality idk what the fuck I want. Something I have to figure out.

4/15/13

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:00:16 -0400

I get so mad sometimes. But I need to remember to love myself first. I won’t let him make me feel low and let him use my insecurities to control me. Fuck that.

Video

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 20:39:49 -0400

I love Slug

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 19:28:10 -0400

I love Slug

"You and I won't lose each other, I will always find you again....

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 16:25:14 -0400

"You and I won't lose each other, I will always find you again. No matter how well you hide. I'm unstoppable."

Tues. April 9 2013

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 16:12:32 -0400

Hi friends. I am a bank teller now, I have this amazing candy apple red honda accord. I learned how to drive stick shift, it’s sexy and the system is pretty good already. This week I am taking my driver’s test, next week I’m getting it registered.
I’m happy I’d say even though I’m sick right now. I’m not totally stress-free, but I’m happy. Moving on from my ex, moving out of his house, good job, car. Last month I haven’t been working out though, my membership fee is due. Once I get that paid I’m going to be doing lots of cardio. At least an hour every day! Cardio and core baby. Going to get everything teeny tiny for summer and just have lots of fun!
I’m starting school in the summer, and also in the fall at another school. I’m learning to keep people in my life and open up and appreciate them. I’m learning to keep the ones out that do me NO GOOD!

My year off of school from high school has been really good to me. I’ve learned so many things! I have so many inspirational, motivational people in my life that I have stuck onto. So many ups and downs but I’m still here and moving forward.
I do feel good about myself and where I am and what I have accomplished. Sometimes it does make me sad that I don’t have anyone to share my success and happiness with, but that’s alright.

I’m insanely excited to see what the future holds for me! Every summer keeps getting better each time, and idk. I hope to have either a dog or a cat. I hope my friends come along more, I hope to make many more. Message me!

-Aurorable

Hi it’s been a long time.

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 16:00:33 -0400

Hi it’s been a long time.

Walked into the bathroom and found this!

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 11:40:32 -0500

Walked into the bathroom and found this!

Ima freak

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 19:14:25 -0500

Ima freak

1-15-2013

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:21:57 -0500

Talking to Tommy helps me out a lot. He’s a really good friend of mine, despite our past, I enjoy having him in my life. He’s an awesome person, great listener, understanding, fantastic friend in general. We talked last night about random stuff and right now I’m blogging a lot to get all my thoughts and feelings collected. Trying to understand them better…

I have some breaks in my personality that I need to fix on. I tend to be really on and off and that fucks with people. I have to change for me, I have to be in or out. I can’t be on the sidelines just waiting there for something to change my mind. I have to make it myself. I can’t hope that things will come to me, I have to decide myself. I can’t depend on someone to make them for me.

I need to figure out my living situation. I need to set up goals in order to get a car, I need to work my butt off.

I can’t have negative people in my life. I can’t make excuses for them anymore, they will bring me down. I need to focus on myself, I need to feel beautiful. I need to do what I always wanted to do. I need to start drawing, I need to start my life. No more waiting, gotta do it. No more giving up.

All this anxiety is hitting my tummy, I only eat like once a day now. It’s weird. Then when I do eat I’m not even hungry. I need to take care of my body. No more hard drugs. Gotta change my sleeping hours to third shift, then once I get a first shift job gotta manage my time a lot better, but that’s not for a month.

I have to wait to sober up. No more smoking for quite a while.

I know what I want. He makes me happy, he cares about me and makes it known. and just like that too, I can’t just hope it’ll come for me. I have to work for it and I know the steps I must take in order to do so. Things like these take time to make it pure. I will be patient, and I will be understanding. No more being demanding and being selfish. A month from now I will be the independent woman I’ve always wanted to be.

Slipping just a little

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:00:38 -0500

I feel like I’m slipping a little of my morals, but shit happens and that’s what I really need to understand. Things will not always be good, the world is beautiful yet can be so ugly. I have to keep remembering that this is only temporary to get myself back up